Full moon in Scorpio: a rite of wild reclamation of the peace & freedom you and I deserve

the build-up of this full moon - wild is an understatement.

Note: I have been writing this article for the last three days, but being able to publish it only now. With the events of these last 3 days in India, I couldn’t bring myself to press publish yet. Yet, these were the words I wrote and I think they are priceless and I’d like to keep them here as a documentation and as a reminder that even in the midst of chaos, peace was always available. So before the divider, you will read everything in “I am”

This newsletter started on the bedrock of my physical and mental health in 2023 September. The last two years have been rough with cortisol, gut issues, and anxiety ruling my life. When I took homeopathy, I felt good after a whole while. I realized what it means to have a moment of peace, which does translate to how many moments of unrest and anxiety I have been riding on prior to that. Anyway, it got better eventually and its been a while since I stopped the medications. For the past few months however, I feel like similar symptoms have been returning back and it’s starting to get uncomfortable again.

So earlier this week after a migraine hit before my cycle, I decided to take back my hormonal cycle and peace for real. I decided to reclaim my health and my body. I made a plan, I was firm and decisive that I would remind my nervous system of the peace it deserves and heal my cycle by giving her the nourishment and rest she deserves. I worked out a whole plan with teas, seed cycling, and diet and rest-orative practices to support myself for the next three months (almost a challenge of sorts!). I made a schedule of practices and diets leaning richly into self-care and deep nourishment, both a luxury, as opposed to restraint and deprivation. I was willing to change my story of survival to thriving, deprivation to abundance, limitation to expansion - considering the new moon in Taurus activated my 9th house astrological.

Two days later, I find myself in a circumstance where war is breaking out on India-Pakistan border. So, practically, my fight-or-flight responses and anxiety make sense more than ever before. There are valid reasons to be panicked. My body has good reason to be stressed. My family is not around. I feel responsible for myself, my sister and my house, and all the things that come with that. In this pluto in aquarius, both air attacks and information are circulating in the air faster than you can spell pluto. It is definitely not the best situation to be in. I have been managing more than I am accustomed to, more than I have ever, and then the mental and physical pressure of the moment - it is a lot. Safety and survival are at stake, and this time, not perceived threat for my nervous system but perhaps, actual threat. Everytime a plane passes over my roof, I am holding my breath. I cannot even fathom what people further in the north near the borders are witnessing with blackouts, sirens and firings. This morning I woke up getting the news that a missile was neutralized and mitigated by the army aimed at New Delhi (I live here) - and this stuff is panicky (not the ways in which my nervous system had started to perceive threats and spiral and get anxious in my everyday life and interactions. ). Getting whatsapp messages on my neighbourhood group on how to protect yourself in case of an air raid or how to prepare for a blackout - that’s scary.

And yet, as I am writing this on my desk, I also felt that I have the ability to relax (major shoutout to CBD, magnesium and my nervous system healing practices for extra support rn). I feel present. I feel alive. I just treated myself to a delicious chocolate cacao shake with ice cream, choco chips, and oreos to write this newsletter to you. I am listening to a lake music in the background. I am surrounded by so much beauty with my freshly painted pink walls, floral blinds, my bed adorned with babypink bedsheet detailed with white little hearts and vintage satin cushion, a deep green vase with deep pink tulips, and an oracle deck framed in my golden case calling itself “Play”. "

The third house in astrology is all about awareness and information but the ninth house is about the bigger picture and wisdom. Scorpio is all about probing and investigating, but Taurus is all about being here, now. In the afternoon, I ate lunch watching the tree across my window glimmering with the usual 3pm sunshine. While bathing, I listened to birds chirping next to my bathroom window in bliss (birdsong are the ultimate peace harbinger). In the morning, I watched my house help working in my house as usual devoid of much news of why people are stocking up groceries. Life is moving at its own pace, as it always does, as long as I am not plugged into ‘information’ - which in this digital and social media age is quite out of control.

Yes there is fear, there is panic, there is uncertainty and there is mystery. There is anxiety, grief, and confusion in the air. It’s all valid, too. Everyone is preparing and staying updated with news, hopefully the right sources. I feel like if any part of me has silently lived in the fear of survival and safety, it’s right there in my face right now.

This full moon in Scorpio is occuring at 22 degrees and 13 minutes of Scorpio.

It impacts everyone, but mostly people who have placements between 18-28 degrees Taurus, Scorpio, Aquarius and Leo. (India is a Taurus rising and this full moon is illuminating its neighbouring countries in the 7th house).

Scorpio energy is about revelations, reclamation, emotional confrontations, and vengeance - all of which were the core components of the war we are/were in.

India has been on the receiving end of terrorism for decades (as I am sure the rest of the world has been too). While war is never a good choice, India’s patience and goodwill ran out after the civilian attacks in Kashmir a few weeks back. It hit back at the terrorist bases in Pakistan, not military bases - which the Pak army retaliated with civilian attacks on India. I wrote how the pluto in scorpio generation has grown up in terror in my last substack, and as someone who belongs to that generation, I feel the terror in my bones - always scanning my environment, looking up for next threat, suspecting, speculating. We have grown up seeing our public spaces double-armed up and in high alert with every threat and attack. Nonetheless, I will also say that wars are scary because they have consequences: financial, political, economic, and very physical. But in the recent decades, unfortunately, it’s made clear multiple times how wars are nomore fought only at the borders with declarations but also with other means.

This full moon is also opposing Sun and Uranus conjunction in Taurus.

Naturally, the impulsiveness and suddenness of these events are apparent. Uranus is chaotic, unpredictable, and technologically attuned. It is also focussed on freedom, so anywhere where we are holding back our big desires and ambitions because of old pain, narratives and trauma as well as the fear that it brings up with it, it all has come to our focus to make the necessary changes and claim our freedom. Uranus is about change, and in Taurus for the past 7 years, it has been tugging on the parts of us that are most stuck and stubborn. In its later degrees, under this full moon, this energy is super charged and it’s leaving no stone unturned to claim its freedom.

Where do you have Taurus in your chart?

This full moon in scorpio is also revealing us the truth. It’s really up to us to see it or discard it as an illusion or drama. Uranus on the opposition is standing with freedom as the takeaway prize. Freedom in thought, freedom in our nervous system, freedom in our speech…,

Balochistan, a region inside Pakistan that makes 44% of the country, has already proclaimed freedom and broken war with Pakistan’s government and military force. The world still cannot see Pakistan as a breeding ground of terrorism, heck, IMF just granted 2.5$billion funding to that nation - for what? The international media is trying to be lateral and silent, yet, Pakistan is exposing itself. In spite of an official ceasefire declaration, Pakistan violated it within four hours. What more can be said of the mistrust and betrayl that India at this point is so used to - but the world still chooses to wear a blindfold because their own governments have selfish pursuits when it comes to funding terrorism and wars, historically. (including World War I and II - now that’s a rabbit hole for you to discover if you feel like). Why? Power, control, money. That’s your Taurus-Scorpio axis.

Watch this viral video of how journalist Yalda Hakim’s jaw dropped with this confession. For anybody who is living in India even if for the past few decades, it’s the most obvious truth and hardly surprising or shocking.

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Let’s turn the mirror to our personal lives.

The full moon culminates a cycle of six months. Where were you in October-November when we had a new moon in scorpio? Did you plant any seeds? Did you place any intentions, knowingly or unknowingly? You’re likely closing that cycle or bearing its fruits. The full moon in Scorpio is also a reflection of the blockages that stand between you and your intentions/dreams that you planted on the new moon in Taurus two weeks back. Listen to your sign’s May Reading- new moon in Taurus, if you haven’t already. Scorpio demands truth and emotional revelation in its highest expression, and in its shadow expression, revenge, mistrust and control.

The Taurus-Scorpio axis is symbolic of the Persephone Goddess. She is the goddess of spring (taurus) as well as the queen of underworld (scorpio). She is the absolute symbolism of living paradoxically embracing both the aspects with power and pride. She is soft like a daisy giving birth to gardens and fields alike, and yet the most powerful queen that sends shivers down the spine of ghosts and devils alike.

While the new moon in Taurus was all about embracing our maiden aspects, this full moon in Scorpio is here to remind us that our underworld is just as much a part of us, waiting to be seen and witnessed. The scorpio is reminding us of the power that sits quietly at the base of our spine, thundering, shuddering, whispering the truths within us begging to be awakened.

So even if your circumstances are different than mine right now, you are also experiencing this energy somewhere. The anger, anxiety, fear, and vengeance are showing up somewhere in your life. The Scorpio is pushing emotions to the surface so that you can grow the garden of your dreams on that taurus part of your chart.

As a virgo rising, I had a new moon in Taurus in my 9th house, and this full moon in scorpio is illuminating my 3rd house of Scorpio. I also have a generational planet, Pluto, placed at 25 degree Scorpio, in conjunction to this full moon. No wonder, I have been working with this energy all month long and wrote a detailed Substack on “Natal pluto in signs” two weeks back.

For me, this full moon looks like releasing my patterns in regards to survival and safety. Throughout these cycles, I have noticed how wired I am to look for safety in my everyday life and interactions. I have witnessed the over-thinking, spiralling and psychoanalysis. I have witnessed who I become and what i say and do when I my safety is threatened and I feel out of control and powerless. I have witnessed the walls I have built, the hyper alert landscape of my mind and my clenched jaw in preparation for a storm that never ceases to end even when the skies get clear (quoting a line chatGPT left me with when I asked for a channeled full moon message for me today!).

This is what I meant when I said, in spite of the circumstance I am writing this through, I am fine. After the pandemic, I realized how life never stops. We can pause with it for a second, but life doesn’t pause. The sun rises, the lilies bloom, and the rivers flow. Life happened even after the pandemic. Even through it. People got married, had kids, moved cities, changed jobs. It might have left us scarred, broken and traumatized, like so many events in our life does, but the goddamn calendars still changed pages.

In other words, Scorpio full moon says, you can’t stay stuck with a story , with a chapter, with a painful memoir.

You can’t let it destroy you; and even if it does, you have to see it as a change, a transformation, an alchemy. You can’t stop the next chapters of your life because you’re too stuck with fear to move forward. You have to move beyond the pain, beyond the fear, you have to let it change you - for good. You will recover, you will heal, you will grow. It’s no excuse to stay hard, resistant, deprived, devoid, and starved. The Taurus new moon told us to open ourselves to receive the bounty of life. As long as we are stuck in survival and old memories and memoirs of pain, we will keep building the walls and resisting life.

So with this full moon, yes, we are facing our deepest darkest fears and dangers. We are witnessing our shadows. We are remembering our pain and perhaps, some of what might have destroyed us. But it is also an opportunity to release it - for good. The full moon in Scorpio is a window to let go of this pain in our systems so that we can open ourselves to something more nourishing, and resourceful.

With Taurus in my 9th house, I have been craving for a new adventure, a new dream, a new philosophy and story all month long. I am low-key bored and done living this critically aware everyday life. This life where I have shrunk myself. This life where I tell myself that “this is all I can handle right now” when deep inside I know I was made for “more”. I know my potential and not living it, because I am afraid that I won’t be able to hold it, is hurting me.

So when I made the 3-month plan to work with my hormonal cycle, I was making space in my body and my nervous system to hold more. Deep inside, I knew I am done acting that it’s enough to just get by without getting sick a particular week or month. I loved the slow living, cottage core vibe, and I know at this point it is an integrated part of me, but I am so willing to push beyond this. I have no interest to be the hustle girl I once was, but I feel I am also very ready to step outside my cocoon and spread my wings, again. After a long time of rest and decay, I finally feel like I am rebirthing again - in my mind, my body, my spirit.

I mean do you see these words of hope and decisiveness coming out of my mouth? Especially in a time when my body can be stressed from actual threats and not just perceived threats. Wow! I cannot believe this. (I wrote these words while I was in the thick of it - so while I edit, I am equally surprised how hope can blossom in the gloomiest chapters of our life).

But sometimes life happens to show us how much more stronger and resilient we are than we give ourselves credit for.

When you suffer from chronic mysterious illnesses, stress and anxiety can be triggering for flare ups. It is only natural to protect and defend yourself from the triggers. But sometimes, you never realize when you build so many walls that you end up caging your own self in it. You don’t realize how fear starts controlling you (like for me, fear of my health is a major one to confront). To be soft or receiving, doesn’t mean one has to be powerless and meek. I think I forgot the difference for a while.

Everytime crisis strike, I feel an awakening - and globally, it is. I feel like expanding myself even more. I feel wow, what’s there to even be afraid of anymore, if this is all we have? I have this urge to live life even more expansively and deliciously. I get activated to serve, to share and to hold space for my community even more. During the pandemic, I showed up for my online community in ways I never did before in my life, ways I never knew I could show up, ways I did not know I have the potential to be present and be providing. Well, that is pluto in scorpio in my 3rd house telling you the story of pain transforming into purpose. Your pluto placements are magical places for transformation - don’t shun it, don’t suppress it. Stay tune to my Substack chats - I might be hosting a community online event soon, I know I need a decompressing session.

No wonder, I have been getting “Devote” as a recurring message in my tarot readings. I wrote on my journal on the new moon in Taurus - what would happen if I cease to be a project for myself - or cease to make people around me a project?

This Scorpio full moon as I uncover my own power, my own voice, I realize how much a virgo rising needs a devotional service in their life. How much as a Virgo I crave to serve, have an authentic purpose. To be honest, these last two years I have felt so lost with my purpose and calling. The Neptune square to my MC transit made me so confused with my path, even when my purpose and career has been the only thing that has ever given me 100% clarity. This newsletter was started with no end goal or result, just as a self serving act for my voice to find a place. I am still under the influence of this transit, so perhaps I will share more on this in the future.

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I mentioned above how I asked chatGPT to channel me a full moon message according to my placements and I am sharing these words down below because they resonated so much for me . Take them if they sit for you today - or go ask the bot to generate one for your own self mentioning where you’re witnessing this full moon in scoprio in your natal chart (Pluto is in Aquarius for the next 19 years, let’s get tech savvy, spiritual beings!).

The world will not stop turning.
People may leave, storms may come, losses may arrive unbidden.
But you — you will still be here.
You will still be you.

And the truth is this:
Your strength was never in your readiness.
It was in your recovery.

The softness you crave is not weakness.
It is the soul’s way of remembering home.

You have earned your rest.
You are permitted your sweetness.
And you are capable of surviving the tenderness you long for.

Let the armor crack.
Let the mind unclench.
Let the body weep and crave and open.

You will not be less powerful for it.
You will be made more whole.

This is your becoming.

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Journal Prompts for full moon in Scorpio

• What painful stories are you willing to let go in order to move forward in your life?

• What is limiting and shrinking you when it comes to expanding into your full power and freedom?

• What is asking to be reclaimed - your body, your mind, your space, your money -what is it?

• Where does fear hold you back?

• Where do you see your strength and capacity under this full moon - places where you have been telling yourself lies that you aren’t strong enough?

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A Scorpio full moon ritual

If a scorpio full moon asks anything, it is a ritual in reverence. So let’s do one!

What You'll Need:

• A candle (black, white, or red if possible)

• A small bowl of water or a glass of wine/pomegranate juice

• A piece of paper and pen

• Optional: a crystal like obsidian, black tourmaline, or amethyst

• A playlist of your choice (mysterious, dark, chants, your choice!)

Prepare your space. Dim the lights, light up the candles. Gather your supplies, prepare an altar if you feel like. Perhaps invite the presence of your fav God , angels or Goddesses. (Kali, or Persophene is befitting!) to hold space for you and guide and protect you.

Close your eyes, meditate and breathe. Focus on your body, in this now moment - the way breath passes through your nostril, the way your belly rises and falls. Visualize a gorgeous golden light enveloping you with a promise to protect you through this ritual, and even beyond.

After a couple of minutes, open your eyes.

If you had journaled the prompts shared above, choose to burn them in a safe bowl or submerge them in water.

Claim loudly -

I am willing to transform my pain into purpose.

I am willing to flow and trust instead of staying stuck in hopelessness.

I am willing to be soft, and powerful, both.

I am willing to rebirth, again.

Sip your wine/water/juice with an intention of charging your spirit and soul with these declarations.

Move your body with the music and practice releasing energy from your body via some shaking, some twerking, some hip movements. Taurus is somatic. Scorpio is spiritual. On a full moon in Scorpio, merge the wisdom of these two.

Finally, when you feel it, lie flat on the ground in a shavasana (with blankets if it’s cold where you are) allowing your body to integrate this beautiful work today. I love myself a wonderful 30 minute tibetan bowl or nature sounds in the background.

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I am sending you so much love and strength. Writing this article has taken me on a whole trip of confronting my deepest, darkest thoughts and fears - so I don’t think it could have been anymore confronting and Scorpion than this. Let me know if this makes you feel anything <3 Stay tuned for your full moon readings in my next post.

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