For those of us experiencing a financial rebirth

money talk, money pivots, money healing

Sending this out on a Diwali week is all the Lakshmi blessings we need for this post! Happy Diwali to those who celebrate, and those who don’t as well. I know many of my readers are not familiar with Hindu culture so yes, I am from India and we celebrate Diwali every year on a black moon in Scorpio. It’s called the festival of lights and it’s a night where every house is adorned with clay diyas, lakshmi-ganesha idols, marigold garlands, and torans made from green leaves. Ofcourse, not to miss out big portions of mithais, ladoos and handmade savories - ahh. This year I have my kitchen renovation going on so unfortunately, I am going to miss out on all the yum delicacies my mum prepares days before. So yes, think Christmas but 10x (because indians only know maximalism!).

So why Diwali reference for a money post? Because it’s the day of abundance! It’s literally a day we celebrate the bounty abundance Lakshmi has gifted us with. It’s a day of gratitude, it’s a day of celebration where you can totally go all OTT basking in the venusian radiance as a way of welcoming more of it.

So naturally, this is a perfect time to talk about money (even though no one actually talks about it in Indian society? and I have been writing this article for weeks at this point without knowing it’d coincide with Diwali). But the sentiment is there in the air, okay? So I am leveraging that and talking about money very openly and candidly as it should be. I love the money rituals and magical money manifestation conversation but this is a sensitive and touchy topic for many and I have tried to touch it that way in this post. So please let me know if it touches you extra deep somewhere and reach out for support (which is the very point of this post) if need be. Above all, I am sending you all the love and magical blessings of Diwali. May this be a year of absolute abundance and magic for all of you and your families xx We all deserve a safe and abundant society and these are the conversations that will pave the way for our next generations to hopefully never feel the shadows, scarcity and fear we all have felt at some point with money and resources. Blessings xx

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My Dad gave me news last week like a TV anchor would if I was still consuming news like how most of people do in these times. Breaking News: we have a recession hitting early next year. BEWARE!! I don’t watch news (but I am an air moon and I get my news anyway, see? ).

Recession is inevitable when Uranus is involved with Taurus. Taurus is the sign that rules all things tangible and materialistic: money, stocks, food, resources, etc. We experienced the infamous global recession in 2008 when Uranus was last in Taurus, in 2020 again with the Pandemic and it might be happening again as Uranus continues to shake our foundations until 2025 March. Uranus has been in Taurus since 2018 and boy has it been making us question everything about money!

The truth is we are amid a big financial pivot and maybe some people are seeing it already playing out in their lives. Please let me know down below if you are experiencing one, we need more inclusive conversations on this. Last week I watched a video from one of the prominent business coaches and YouTuber I have been following since the start of my business journey. She was talking about her financial struggles through the brave pivot she is making right now on a public platform. And, I applaud her. It takes f**king guts to not just embrace your financial struggles, and struggle with those financial issues, but also choose to not feel ashamed of it.

Of course, that’s a whole body of inner work that we all have collectively been engaging with in our own ways.

I remember back in 2018, for the first time, talking about money candidly to a friend- a Taurus at that. Honestly, it was my first and it was quite awkward…I hadn’t really talked about money to anyone before that. Maybe I was too delulu (delusional), or who knows too lucky or privileged as people like to call us, to ever have it as a topic in my life. My Dad has been the most Dad-figure who never liked speaking about money issues in front of his kids. I will also not deny that we don’t live in a world where it’s normal or even accepted to talk about money in the open. Your own money, precisely. It’s almost taboo.

Anyway, this was the time when I got super interested in understanding the energetics of money. Umm, yes, not education per se but energetics of money ;) For the love of God, and heavens promise, I have tried reading the best selling financial education books from my Dad’s little library in an attempt to come across smart and sassy in front of the boys but tbh, I could never.

That was until 2019. That year, I witnessed the whole, “Get Rich Lucky Bitch” (great book!) vibe from women across the board talking about money subliminals, money tracking rituals, date with money, money manifestation etc etc. Now that was quite alluring for this Venus in 8th house! Since that year I started diving and sharing almost together all about money magic! And ofcourse, I will and cannot deny that for good or for bad, the Universe responded in equal measures to make money an important topic in my life for the first time. My own pivots coincided with pivots from my family members and while money before was something we never talked about, unfortunately, at one point it became the only thing we were talking about. Told y’all, money has been a collective topic since the time Uranus entered Taurus.

This is when I had to learn that money is not just feminine or just masculine how we are taught traditionally - or in the modern spiritual world - it is both. Part consciousness does the work, part unconsciousness - just like any other creation in the world.

Money is collectively evolving and re-structuring. The more open we can get speaking, talking, and sharing about it - the more supportive environment we can create for people to make the shifts they need to for the sake of the sanity of their minds, bodies, and souls. Clearly, the old structures are in shambles and crumbling down. Maybe some are still thriving in those worlds, but we all know as the Pluto in Capricorn era ends, no one is buying that authority anymore. We want and desire and need freedom as the foundation of our Aquarian age. '

Just making enough to pay the bills is turning out too expensive for us.

Not making enough to stay true to your ethics, values, and well-being is turning out too draining for us.

We are sandwiched between the two worlds - and we can no longer afford to choose one between the two.

Here are a few ways I am enlisting down below that have come to become an important aspect in my financial healing journey atm. I hope these give you a new perspective, a new thought process, or at least a new way of looking at money.

radical self-acceptance about your financial struggles

So I re-visited my homeopath that I was consulting with last year for my anxiety and I loved how I talked about money so candidly. Throughout our conversation last year, I could not honestly share money as an issue even once through our time together. And today, just as a part of the conversation, we talked about money as a component of my current pivot journey laughing like it’s the most normal part of life - which just by the way, if you read or talk about real people, you will soon realize it indeed is.

Honestly, I wish I dared to talk about it last year when the ground beneath me was slipping already, and yet I was trying to cling to it more and more tightly. I needed it. But perhaps I was not ready for it. I was not ready to be seen as a 31-year-old woman figuring out this whole money thing and failing publicly at it.

Yes, money is a stressor. In our world, it is a factor that is associated with our safety. But what makes it even worse is the fact that we don’t even have the safe communities and environments to have these conversations. It is the debilitating shame associated with it. Let alone asking for support but simply even sharing about it in a candid, honest space seems like a far distant reality at this point.

Throughout this journey I have realized how there is nothing successful about clinging to the false image of ‘i have my shit together’ when shit is hitting the fan!

I think this is where a lot of work around detachment and emotional regulation comes into play where you need to see and understand that you are so much more than the money you make. You need to see and witness your worth, identity, and relationships beyond money. Yes, it’s hard work, the kind of hard work we were never taught in this capitalist society. It’s hard work to get vulnerable and face your shame which keeps telling you that you don’t deserve the support you seek. But ooooof, the healing that this hard work can bring when you see and realize alright, I actually deserve to be supported in whatever ways and capacity I can or want - it’s profound!

I think it’s time that we accept that the anxiety around money is ‘not’ normal. It isn’t okay to perpetually feel unease around money. It is not okay to always stay in fight and flight when it comes to money. It is definitely not healthy to chase money because we are chasing the safety that comes with it. The chase is tiring, infuriating and fruitless. A darn hamster wheel.

Understanding your money energetics

The realization that as an undefined spleen in human design, there is always going to be a sense of insecurity, it’s been a relief of sorts to not…fix it? Or fake it. I also have Venus in Aries in 8th house opposing Jupiter in Libra in 2nd house - again, the awareness that money and resources are always going to hold some charge for me and are going to be a catalyst for my transformation makes me not take those intense feelings and emotions around it personally.

As I wrote above, no more assuming that chasing money or getting hands on more money could ever make me feel safe. I mean I can legit look at my dad and his Dad to see how that just never works. They are just as anxious as they were yesterday even though their money reality has transformed a whole 360 degree in their lifetime. (will talk more about this in the next point!)

I also became quite relaxed about where I am in my financial journey when I worked with the current transits of nodes in these houses. I was like, “ah, okay, cool, this is how it looks right now, it’s not going to be the same forever. We are going through a process of eliminating outdated ways of making money, it is teaching me to receive support, to share, to be intimate with money - got it Universe! Not taking it personally anymore. It’s happening for me, not to me!”

When I learned about these transits, I also started using them to leverage them instead of feeling attacked by them. I remembered how last time the node reversals were in these houses, that’s when I had started to open up my avenues of money with my first paid job. So ofcourse, this is real. So now this time around we are switching things up. How can I now open myself to support and collaboration instead of pushing into the urge of having to do it all by myself as I have since the time I started earning? I started seeing this as an opportunity to step out of my hyper-independence instinct into a healthier interdependence.

The thing is, none of the placements or transits are bad, we just have to learn to work with them. You don’t have to play the blame game with astrology. So while a general astrology analysis might say, “oh Jupiter is in debilitation in Libra or Venus is detriment in Aries” - my personal experience and interpretation says that I think I am quite lucky to find money to come in to support me in some expected or unexpected ways always - it’s very, very kismet vibes from Jupiter and Venus! For so long I have been desperate to find some (unrealistic?) sense of stability or consistency in my finances even when I didn’t know what exactly that looked like. There was continuously an external (not-self) pressure drive to just look for safety outside of me and now when I look in hindsight, it was there even when I was making good money. It’s always been there. As an undefined spleen, safety is not a consistent theme for me. I can look for all the consistency outside (in my relationships, in my money, in my fucking Instagram posts), but that darn thing is still gonna play hide n seek with me. Making peace with the inconsistency and not giving to the not-self fear and ‘recognizing’ it instead of ‘reacting’ to it has been a big game changer.

Another place to look at is your 2nd house, the house ruled by taurus. It is also called the house of self worth and this explains why I talked about how you are ‘more’ than your money in the previous point.

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Healing your money trauma and karma

We are all in Kalyuga, of course, we all have some money trauma directly or indirectly embedded in ourselves. Alongside, we all come from a history of genetic trauma seeding from wars, famine, slavery, colonialism, and so on. We cannot ignore the fact that just 25 years ago a woman in America could not get a credit card to her name unless it was signed by her husband. In countries like India and Pakistan, just a generation ago, 80% women were home makers and had no avenue of making their own money or support themselves other than through partnership alliances. (has anyone binged on regency-era movies like Persuasion or Emma or Sense and Sensibility? Maybe books and stories from those times. You’d know exactly what I mean). I am the first woman in my lineage to ever have the opportunity to earn my own money. The belief that a woman can be financially independent is quite novel to my DNA and even my subconscious since I have seen very (very) few examples growing up in my immediate environment. Growing up all I ever knew was I didn’t want to be like my mom (RIP hyper-masculine girlies who couldn’t see the beauty of receiving). Yet, the few last years have been all about fighting this same belief somehow. It’s hard to outrace your DNA. It’s a mindset battle I have been fighting ever since I started making money.

Another belief that I have had to break free out of was the urge and motivation to earn financial independence so that I could make important decisions of my life (like when and who I get married to). It can sound absurd at this point but as a little girl growing up in India I learnt quickly that your voice is as free and powerful as your finances. My chase for ambition and financial security was actually my desire to be free to choose my life partner. When I watched women older than me, I learnt that if you are financially free, you can make your decisions and no one would question you. I had to learn the tough way when the time came that a woman is allowed to choose who and when she marries irrespective of her financial position. A woman’s voice and choice are suppose to be free irrespective of the number in her bank account. A woman’s freedom cannot be bought. I cannot hustle my way to love. It was very naive of me to chase financial independence with this belief system, but these very beliefs caged me to knit a web of my self sabotaging behaviours both in love and money.

Maybe you don’t struggle with some ingrained trauma from your ancestry but maybe living in a new city without a cushion has left you scarred and anxious. Maybe you are tired of being the one taking care of others. Maybe you really witnessed a rags to riches story or riches to rags. If there has been a traumatic money story from your ancestry or childhood, it needs to be looked at if not healed necessarily. You cannot heal something you don’t even know is hurting you. Stop living in denial. Your hurt is valid. It doesn't make you broken. The whole thing about being human is coming to this planet to experience some karmic trauma and heal those leaks for your lineages to come. Sometimes karma can range from your lineage or previous lifetimes. This shit is not in our control as much as we think it is. Money is very karmic in nature and many times we can find ourselves in difficult financial situations with no fault of ours. You’re not a bad person if you’re going through a financial rupture. You’re not an irresponsible kid. You’re not stupid nor foolish. Maybe your finances say nothing at all about who you are but simply about the time to pivot, to learn, or to stop repeating a pattern. Don’t take your finances personally.

Opening income sources that nourish you

I think we have been unlearning the traditional ways of making money as Pluto in Capricorn completes its 15 year tenure. We need to expand our beliefs around money - which by the way, Uranus has been doing an excellent job with Taurus since the last 6 years. We need to think of money as more than something we make through our day jobs. Passive incomes and portfolio careers have been catching up with the trends in this last decade as people are realizing how unreliable and unpredictable the corporate job market can be. However, I also think that just because something is passive doesn’t mean it’s nourishing or aligned for you. So no, I am not asking you to get yourself enlisted in stock market trading if that’s not your thing (the future of which though is a whole another conversation!). I have been forced by my dad to be enlisted and I have had people around me talk about it all the time and it falls deaf on my ear. It bores me. Now I didn’t say money bores me. The stock exchange bores me. I like money. And personally it’s important for me to be aligned with the sources of my money. Shouldn’t it be for everyone? Money is energy. What are you plugged into? Does it nourish you? There is always an energy exchange - passive or not. Be wary of money leaks. It’s so real to be plugged into sources that are draining you and witnessing the manifestation of it in your bank statement.

I have no energy to exert on learning any of the stock market details - but writing books, designing delicious creations, recording meditations - sign me up! I don’t mind expending energy on that. It fuels me. It is nourishing. The truth is, nothing is truly passive you know? If I write a book, I will still have to promote it. The reason I thought through before publishing Awaken to Self Love was because I wanted it to be something I could proudly talk about for days (and years!) to come.

So yes, I think with where we are, I’d encourage everyone to play with different sources of income and money (why not!) as long as they are aligned with your ethics (saturn), values (venus), and principles(jupiter). And yes, while you’re at it, make it fun. Making money is not hard in this world right now. Making money in ways that nourish and empower you - oooh boy! that’s the success I am lusting after eternally.

Building communities of mutual support

I have a line 4 and so many of my ripest opportunities have come through mutual friends network. Everyone knows everyone in my world by some strange phenomenon. I have seen the beautiful energy of what can happen if we support each other in our communities in real-time. Instead of searching for the best interior designer, why don’t you reach out to someone in your friend circle who is in the business? I know, I have seen way too many times how reserved and hesitant we are and want to keep business and relationships separate. But to be honest, it’s the best way to support each other through this transformational age. Our structures are shifting. And we need to support and be supported through this shift. I am sorry but we can no longer afford to have people in our life we call close but with whom we cannot talk about our money and business, something that holds so much relevance in our lives.

Anchoring into grounding and safety of self over money’s

I have recently come to an observation about my money attachment style. It so happens that my anxious attachment style doesn't just play out in my relationships but also in my financial journey. I am not just anxious about my relationships and people in them, but I am also anxiously attached to money. One thing Uranus in Taurus has been teaching us for the last seven years with its sudden unpredictability is that we CANNOT outsource our inner safety. The Pandemic was a huge test on this and the way our nervous system blasted through and post that period is proof of how unequipped we are in that area of our lives. We have zero sense of inner safety and so many of us have learned to outsource that in money and relationships, but it’s not working out, you know? Our pattern of feeling safe through money is not supportive enough. If it was, anxiety would have been a poor man’s sickness. But it isn’t right? It doesn't matter how many needs our money can practically fulfill, it still comes down to how safe and grounded we feel.

So let’s thinks and reflect how can we stop outsourcing our safety to money? How can we create pockets of safety and grounding in our everyday lives?

Think, taking a walk in nature. Think, cuddling with your loved ones. Think, having certain routines and rituals in place that make you feel safe.

For me, my morning and night routines of breathing and stretching along with brewing cacao/tea gives me a sense of anchor and I have observed how less anxious I tend to be when those needs are already met first thing in the morning. What is it for you? How does it look like for you? Maybe, it’s not a daily routine but a weekly breathwork or yoga session.

One space where you can drop and relax and feel safe. What is that pocket for you when you can lean back? I also love small meditations and affirmations on Insight timer for the same sometimes in between a busy day. Here are mine.

Here’s a little gift from me this Diwali. A sweet money hypnosis from my Insight premium library that you can access for free here <3 If you listen, don’t forget to let me know how it felt for you <3

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